well, it's thursday. matthew comes home today but he left for field training again on tuesday. did i cry? duh. was i a total mess on tuesday? probably. but ya know, by the afternoon i had finished crying all together and got on with things! i guess i had enough going on (or maybe i just knew it was only technically two days) that i was able to not let it bother me. we had people coming to the house the day matthew left along with the day after so i had to pack everything up getting it ready so that was more than enough to keep on keeping on. but the bad part was, i think i overdid it a little bit and had a bit of a scare the day of or after matthew left. normally matthew turns in his phone and is completely away but the weird part was, he called me in the afternoon and said "im just letting you know i will have my phone with me in case of an emergency, okay? if anything happens, text me and i will try to look at it later in the day. or if its a real emergency, here is my higher-ups phone number. hes closest to me through it all so if you have to, call him." and then in the background i hear "shell be seven months next week". it was weird. its like, with training, they have him somewhat on standby in the case something goes wrong. its nice, but had me on edge. regardless, i was working all day nonstop and by the evening, i started feeling weird...
i had A LOT of pressure in my lower abdomen that evening after using the restroom and when i got back up, i could hardly walk. it was really scary so had the guys all on standby in the case i had to go to the hospital. i didnt want to alarm matthew so i just gave him a "heads up" text and tried to go to bed. by the next morning, i woke up feeling fine. *THANK YOU JESUS!*
but regardless, today he comes home and i get to give him lots of hugs and kisses and cuddles. and i dont think he will be going into the field anytime soon (if at least not for a week) so thatll help. thanks army, for my hubby back.