holy moly. we are going to find out the gender of our baby. how is that a thing? this whole pregnancy, none of it has seemed real. i feel like the beginning of growing a child is complicated because without feeling the baby, you don't feel connected to it. it's not until you see the baby or feel it that all those emotions start coming in. when we originally first saw baby, i was in awe and sobbed like a baby. then i lost all emotions to it. now that we saw the baby yesterday, it was a whole new feeling. we saw it's little feet clack. we saw it's hands move around. the baby even moved when i asked it to! (obviously that was an accident but still). you don't realize what you got till you see it. after we did, i laid in bed like a giddy little school kid. we have a baby growing inside of me!